When September 2012 rolls around and you receive your answers to your 10Q questions, how do you think you'll feel? What do you think/hope might be different about your life and where you're at as a result of thinking about and answering these questions?
I hope to still be pondering over some of the same issues while also having found some resolution to them. I doubt any of my big questions will answer themselves in twelve short months, but I do hope to discover more nuance, as well as other big life topics. I guess my brain appreciates living life through various themes: partner/friends balance, self-advocacy, dealing with conflict head-on, etc. This work will never be done, but part of my happiness resides in working through life with loved ones.
I hope that I am doing what I am doing now, but with a more positive attitude.
I think I may still identify with many of these feelings. I hope that I can say that I've checked off some of my aspirations, as I did this past year. I hope that I've left behind my feelings of resentment, anger, and hurt, since they are only hurting me more and weighing me down. I hope that I will know a little more about myself, what I want, what I need, who I am.
I hope that in September 2012 I look back at these answers and can see how I've changed or grown. That I've been successful in graduate school, I feel good about myself and where my life is headed.
I hope I'll feel a sense of pride and accomplishment. I worry that I'll feel deja-vu all over again!
I hope that I will have a little more direction, know kind of what the next five years are supposed to look like, be living in a place that I intend to spend more than a year in... I hope that I will be able to see how far I have come.
The 10Q process helped me pick a focus to think about on Yom Kippur... for the bulk of the day I focused on the goal of being around after the kids get home from school to play with, do homework with, influece their lives. I hope that when September 2012 rolls around, I will see that I have weaved that goal so into the fabric of my life that i don't need to think about it anymore.
I will be surprised how entrenched I currently am in the world of mom and baby. I am wondering if I will have advanced along the trajectory of letting go that has been the main theme of the last while for me. I am hoping that I will have a little more balance in my life... A rounder identity (and a slimmer post baby belly :)
I hope that my life will be more settled. I hope that I will have recovered more from the shocks to my life I have experienced the past year.
I hope my children will be in a better place emotionally, and able to deal with their lives and situations in as healthy a way as possible.